I've decided that this will probably be something we do every year in honor of you. I know that there are so many things I want to do, but I can't. If I were a millionaire I would do so much more. I am also hoping that by doing this it would be something that Prairie would do when she was older too!!
I've been doing so much better. I didn't go to the doctor for my anxiety because I haven't had any attacks lately. I've been reading. I am on the last book in the Twilight series and I've really gotten into them. I've even been dreaming about the book and the movie. I started reading to relieve my stress level and to ease my mind. Surprisingly it has helped. I still miss you and I still think about you all the time, but it not as hard. But that's just it, I don't know how long this will last. I don't know how long I can stay calm without totally freaking out.
I also smelled this sweet scent in my room this morning before I completely woke up, was it you? If it was, thank you for visiting.