It's time to turn another month older, Cylas. I wish you were here so I could see the changes your body has made. I know that you would be climbing around like a little monkey. I know that you would probably follow your Big Sister everywhere and try everything that she tries. I wonder if you would still be my little bear or if you would have lost your chubbiness by now. Sometimes I can close my eyes and imagine how you would look right now, but there are times that's hard to do.
I don't think I'll ever quit wishing you were here. I have a huge peice missing from my life and I'll never get that back. I wish there was a way for me to take the few pictures I have and have them aged from month to month, so I would at least see some kind of change.
HAPPY 19 MONTHS CYLAS!!!! I LOVE YOU!