I will be off tomorrow and Friday. My cousins funeral is planned for Friday. How do you prepare for something like this? I honestly don't think you can. These things are always hard. I can still close my eyes and relive Cylas' funeral. I might have been in a haze the whole time, and I might have been numb, but those memories are still there. It's been very quiet and lonely, which is how I feel after someone has passed away. I think it's the quiteness that does you in. You are left to let your mind race and hit on so many things, it's torture.
Cylas in my heart I know that you are happy in heaven. I know that you are not in pain. I know that you have no worries or wants. I know that you are waiting for the day when we are reunited again. I know that you watch over us everyday, even though we don't always know. I KNOW ALL THIS STUFF, BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER. My heart aches, my eyes are filled with tears, I only want you in my loving arms.
I love you!!!!!!! Forever & Always!!!!!