Cylas there is alot going on right now. I'm pretty sure you know all about it. Your momma is trying her best to hold it together. I finally got some rest last night after only getting an hours worth of sleep Thursday. The next few days are going to be hard. Everyone keeps saying that its going to be alright and that it will be ok. I get it. I really do!! But what is suppose to take away the pain and the hurt, you know. Saying goodbye is never easy. Your Aunty Martha is still hanging in there. She hasn't eaten since last Saturday and yesterday they started giving her morphine. I'm thankful that I've been able to go and sit with her. I took your sister to see her last night and she reacted to her voice. She actually smiled!! T knows that's her gramma and that's how I wanted it. Martha loves her so much. I wouldn't and couldn't take that away from her. I don't know how much longer she can make it but one thing for sure, she's ready to go!!! She's been ready to go. She was getting visits from Uncle Woody and Uncle Noah long before this. And I know that they are ready for her to come join them and you. It's going to be a great reunion!! She has parents, siblings, and nephews up there and I know that you all will welcome her with open arms. It will be good for you to get to know her. She's a great Aunt. Don't be shy. Run into her arms when she gets there and tell her that you love her. Be with the family. Let us know that you are around to help her make this journey!!
It's not getting any better for your Nana. As much as I hate to admit it, she's not getting better. I see changes in her daily. It's not going to be easy to explain everything to her. I just don't know how much she comprehends anymore. We have to keep telling her that her sister isn't going to get better and it breaks her heart every single time. Sometimes I wonder if its worth putting her through this. I don't know all the details because I haven't spoken with your Uncle Junebug yet but I think your nana will need to start Dialysis in 3 months. I hope she doesn't fight it and works with the doctors but she's so stubborn!! It's a Lossiah thing, LOL!! I've been trying to talk to her about it and all she says is that it's her life and when it's her time to go, she'll go. I swear she's gonna drive me crazy, LOL, but I do love her. We have good times and then we have bad times. I mainly just hope she'll agree for her grandbabies. She loves all of you so much. I hate that your not here to experience life but then again I'm relieved that you don't have to go through any pain or heartache. You are our angel, we love and miss you every single day!! Watch over your nana. Tell her not to be so stubborn.
Cylas get ready! Tell Gpa John, Gma Charlotte, Great Uncle Woodrow, Great Uncle Noah, your other Aunts & Uncles, Martin, and John Russell to get ready to welcome Martha home!!! It's not going to be too long now so be ready!!! We're ready as we're going to be to tell her Goodbye down here!! <3>
I Love You Baby Boy!!! Forever & Always!!!!
You are my Sunshine
6 years ago