I had a housewarming shower yesterday and my cousin brought my aunt. Her name is Julie and she has two kids. One of those kids is two months older than you! It was very hard to see her little boy running around and not think "that could be Cylas." All I yearn for is to have my family complete again and it breaks my heart to know that will never happen. Junior is potty trained and very active. He's talking and clearly loves his momma! And of course he fights with his older sister. He does all the stuff I would love to see but never will. But on the up side I did get an idea of what you would be doing if you had lived.
It was nice to see Junior but it also cut like a knife! I know you and him would have probably tore up the place because that's what boys do, right! I know that I will have these little reminders for the rest of my life I just hope they stop hurting as much! I still miss you so much and I still wish upon a star for your return! I'm a mom aho wants to hold her child again! I want to hold your hand until you fall asleep at night and I want to trip over all your boy toys! I think there's a reason why I don't go around my cousin that much and her son is the reason why. Its just too hard!
Cylas, I love you very much!! I wish you were here!!
You are my Sunshine
5 years ago