WHERE MY MIND IS TODAY..............

It's with you!!! Been sitting here at work with tears in my eyes all morning. Today you are on my mind, my heart is aching for you!! Why?? I don't know. I have moments like this from time to time. Usually it means that I need to visit you or it means that I've been holding it in so long that I'm just ready to break. I keep thinking about how your birthday is only a few months away and how I plan on  celebrating that special day without you here. Your sisters already requested the balloons because they said you love them, Ha!! Ha!! And of course we always do cake. I'm also considering sky lanterns in the shape of hearts, anything for you babe!!

Then we have to decorate your grave with Christmas flowers and some new toys. I keep thinking about all the things you could be doing and the funny things you would be saying. I'm pretty sure you would be mess and a rowdy little man, LOL!!

I love you and miss you, Cylas!!! Always and Forever!!!

Mommy