26 MONTHS OLD

Wow, I can't believe how old you are getting. It's unbelieveable. You were my greatest gift in life. I've dreamt of having a little boy and I finally get you, only to have you taken away 3 weeks later. It's a sad reality but it's become my life. I don't know what it is about boys that make momma's want them so badly. I guess in my case it's because both your sisters act just like me and that's bad.

I wanted to have my sweet little boy. I want to have a little boy that was sweet and huggable around mama and then rotten around everyone else, HA!!! It's been so hard knowing what I am missing. I had so much that I wanted to do with you. I couldn't wait to teach you to play ball. I wanted to watch you try and kick a ball for the first time. That would have been funny.

There's just something about a boy that warms a mom's heart. Don't get me wrong I love the girls but I miss my boy so very much. I wanted you here so bad. I still want you here. There is no amount of time that can change that. I'll be 80 years old and have grown daughters and probably grand babies and I'll still be missing you. But I guess that's a momma's heart. That's something that doesn't change. You took a peice of my heart with you and I will always have that peice missing no matter how old I get.

HAPPY 26 MONTHS, BABY BOY!!

Love your,
Mommy