HAPPY 2ND HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY!!!

Cylas' birthday isn't officially until tomorrow, but it's a holiday here at work and I won't have computer access until January 4, 2010.

I can't believe my little boy is going to be 2 years old. It's not fair that I have to celebrate this special day without him. I have tons of memories and I have tons of heartache. I continue to wish Cylas could come back and be here with me and his sisters. They would be so fun together.

Tomorrow I will send him lots of balloons and we'll have a cake. I have his birthday/Christmas presents but I don't know if I can make it to his gravesite. The snow has really messed up my plans, UGH!! He also has a new Christmas ornament but unfortunately I won't be able to use it this year. My dad has refused to put up a tree because he's afraid Teela will knock it down.

HAPPY 2ND HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY CYLAS MYCHAL TOINEETA!!!!!  Your momma, sisters, Nan & Pop, and Uncle love you with all our hearts. We miss you tremendously. You were a wonderful baby and miss holding you in my arms. I wish I could hear you talk and laugh. I wish that I could look into those beautiful eyes just one more time. I wish that ...................................you could be here.

I love you baby!!!!!

Mommy