15 MONTHS

Cylas it's been 15 months since you grew your angel wings and left me. It hasn't been easy and I still struggle every day with this new "normal." I have so many questions that I know will never get answered. I miss you and wish everyday that you could come back. I love you with all my heart. I keep thinking that I should have done this or done that and maybe you would still be here. However, it's been a while since I've actually sat and blamed myself for what happened to you. But it doesn't mean that I don't think about it. I wish I had done something different. I wish I was more BOSSY with your nurses and doctors instead of believeing every word that came out of their mouth.

Cylas I want you to know that you will NEVER be forgotten. I will carry you in my heart FOREVER. You will always be my little Prince and my Ta-la-du. Your sister and I try so hard to understand but sometimes our trying turns to pain. She loves you and misses you, too. Please watch over us and let us know that you are still here with us.

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!

Mommy