11 month ANGELVARSARY

Cylas it's been 11 months since I've held you in my arms and felt the warmth of your skin on my face. I can't even begin to tell you where this leaves me right now. I am missing out on so much, and it's not fair. No matter how much time passes, I will still have a hole in my heart and I will miss you forever.

Today is your Nana's birthday, but she's already gotten all of her presents. She complains about everything!!! It's hard buying for her because you never know if she'll like it or not. Luckily, I managed to get her exactly what she wanted so I am free of hearing her complain. But you gotta love her. I don't know if she remembers today is also your angelvarsary, but I don't plan on telling her, I want her to enjoy her birthday, KWIM?

Another exciting weekend. I thought your sister was going to go to Nashville with your "dad", but she didn't want to go and he couldn't make her. We're suppose to agree on these things, but he always tries to push me around and it just didn't go his way this time. He never ceases to amaze me. He's acting like I have to bow down before him since he's remarried and everything, and it's just not going to happen.

Cylas, you are on my thoughts today. I miss you so very much!!!! I wish that you were here instead of where you are at, but I also know that you are ok. Please be close today, your sister and I need a visit from you so bad.

Love you baby boy!!

Mommy