A WHOLE BUNCH OF NOTHING

I don't have a lot to write about. It's been pretty BLAH this week. However, I did hear that our cousin's cancer has spread into his brain and he has chosen not to do the radiation or chemo. It's hard hearing that kind of news but I try to stay positive until the very end. I've always been that way. I used to think of myself as a cry baby when it came to bad news but now I'm not so sure.

I'm not in the PIT so to say, I'm just without words, if you can believe that's possible!!!!! Sister and I have been talking to you and about you a lot lately. Cylas star is the first star out at night and each time we've looked up at it, a plane is flying by. So we think you are so lucky because you get to see that plane up close and personal. Sister also wishes that she could fly to the moon and talk to you just like the little girl in "Dancing on the Moon." She has taken that book to school and shared with her "English" class, actually she's been taking it every where.

I guess it's just that time again. Pretty soon the anxiety will be building and I won't be able to stand it. But I'm going to try to do a little better this year. T's birthday is a day before yours so I've got to do something for her's, but I'm still not sure what to do for your's. I plan on getting a cake again, and buying you some toys, and letting some balloons go (not sure if I'll do it at the house or at your grave). But I always start wondering if that's enough. I also plan to buy a toy for a boy your age and donating it again. That was something that Sister and I both worked on last year and it really seemed to help her.

And of course I am counting down the days to the release of NEW MOON!!!! November 20th can't come fast enough!!!!

I guess that's about it. I know that I'm rambling so I might as well quit while I'm ahead.

Love you so much,

Mom