COMPLETE PANIC

I was on my way to lunch and I received a text message from your grandma. And even though I have major issues with your so called "dad", your grandma was there for us and I know that she cares about you. Well, anywho, she texts me, telling me that she received an email for the LAWYER and he wants to meet with us ASAP. And of course my first thoughts are is it good or bad? Will there be more waiting or more fighting with the hospital? Will settling our case be enough? Is it time for that dreaded battle on the money? (I have no intention on letting your so called "dad" get his hands on any money received, if we get any at all. So I know that IS something he'll fight tooth and nail for.) He's so pathetic. You didn't matter to him until he realized there could be money involved.

I always dread the LAWYER meetings because I never know what to expect. So I have a huge knot right in the middle of my stomach right up until the meeting itself. I don't want to go into the meeting and hear "I'm sorry, they think they did nothing wrong in the care of your son." That's the one thing that could possibly damage me the most. I already feel like I didn't fight hard enough to save your life and this pending lawsuit would make me feel better if I knew we could win. But even that is up in the air. Time is running out, we have a time line to work with and with each passing month that time line gets smaller and smaller.

I hate this...........I hate not knowing...................I hate feeling this panic in my heart & mind................I hate it!!!!!!

Mommy