Last night I heard some very bad news!!! About two weeks ago I told you about Scott. He's from Oklahoma, but he used to live out here for a awhile. It has broken my heart to hear that Scott lost his baby brother Jon. They found him dead yesterday morning. They don't know what happened to him. I knew Jon too!!! He was a great guy and I am shocked by this news. I've tried to contact Scott through email to let him know that I am thinking about him and his family but I haven't heard from him. I have his phone number, but I don't know what to say at a time like this. It's never easy to say the right words when someone has lost a loved one. Sometimes you end up sounding like a complete idiot!!
Please say a prayer for Scott and his family. Jon leaves behind two beautiful children and his wife.
August 27, 2009
FOR LUCY
Today Olive Lucy celebrates her 2nd Heavenly Birthday!!! Please remember her and say a prayer for her Mom, Dad, and Lil' Brother.
August 26, 2009
NEW HEADSTONE........IT'S HERE
I really like it. I am satisfied with how it turned out. I will no longer complain about your headstone. I wanted something more personalized and I wanted it to be from ME & YOUR SISTER. I wanted you to have something you could be proud of. But I really wish it could have been a new TOY!!
I love you son!!! And ENJOY!!!!!
Mom
August 24, 2009
20 MONTHS OLD/HEADSTONE
Today you are 20 months old. What else can be said? My life has kept moving forward and yours has stopped. I miss you so much..........................
Also, your new headstone will be coming in today. I designed it but I haven't seen it. Our cousin said it's beautiful. I hope that you like it. I wanted to get something that you would be proud of.
Also, your new headstone will be coming in today. I designed it but I haven't seen it. Our cousin said it's beautiful. I hope that you like it. I wanted to get something that you would be proud of.
August 17, 2009
19 MONTH ANGELVARSARY
Saturday was your 19 month angelvarsary!!! It was bittersweet. I thought about you most of the day. Crying only when I was alone or when T was taking a nap. I hope you don't feel like I've replaced you already. T is a blessing in disguise, but she doesn't feel that empty spot in my heart. I think that will forever belong to you. The day you died is still fresh in my memory, it still hurts so very much.
I can't believe I've made it 19 months without you. When you died I honestly thought it couldn't be possible. But I've learned to live from day to day, sometimes minute to minute. And I live for your sisters. I know that they need their momma and I know that I need them. I totally understand why your uncle kept telling me "not to lose control". At the time I just wanted to punch his lights out. But now I understand. Your big sister has had the hardest time and even though it hurts to talk about what happened to you, I don't hold anything back when she asks about what happened to you. She needs to know and it helps us both with the healing process. I know that if I did lose it, I wouldn't be the mother that she needed at that time or today. She's been missing you, so please stay close to her, always!!!!
Missing you always, Loving you Forever!!!
Mom
August 6, 2009
NEW PICTURES
I want to share some new photos of your sisters. Your Big Sister just graduated and is getting ready for Big School. And Teela, well, she's getting big. Missing you Always! Loving you Forever!!
Mom
August 3, 2009
OLD FRIENDS
When I went to church (I've been going, and I am trying to find my way again) yesterday, I got the surprise of my life!!!! My old teacher and friend came in from Oklahoma for a short visit. He was a part of my life for a long time and I really enjoyed the friendship that we had. He's been gone for about 8 to 9 years and it was really great to see him!! He didn't know anything about my life since he left and we're both very bad pen pals. When he was here his girls Danielle, Kylee, and Jaime were still in grade school, and now both Danielle and Kylee have graduated High School. Danielle has received a two year degree and plans on working this year and then returning to school next year. Kylee is going into pre-med at North Eastern in Teliquah (sp??), OK and then she plans on transferring to the University of Tenn. Jaime will be a freshman this year and she has gotten TALL!!! Scott and his wife Janice have not changed one bit. He still looks the same and I still feel as close to him as ever. He has invited me to visit him in Oklahoma, so now I have another reason to travel to Oklahoma. I love it out there, but don't like to drive out there!!!!
Scott was like a brother to me and he knew both me and my EX. So he was very surprised to hear that we had divorced and no longer talk. He was also very sad to hear that I had lost you. So I had to go through my story and tell him about you. And of course he agrees that you did look just like your "dad". I think you would have really liked him. He's a nice guy and a true friend. It was really nice to reconnect with him for the first time in a long time. It was just like he had never left. He keeps saying that he wants to move back, but I don't know when. I wish they never left.
So seeing Scott and his family was the highlight of my weekend. He's leaving tomorrow, but this time I have all of their email addresses and I do plan on keeping in touch. I didn't take any pictures so I can't post any, but it seems like I always do that.
Cylas, I love ya!!!!!
MOMMY
(**Note: Well Scott and his family left to go back to Oklahoma today!! We spent about an hour and half with them last night. We talked and watched your sissy play with his nephew Jon. I hate that they had to go back, but I hope to make it out there in December. It's definitely in the early stages of planning, but I think it would be a good trip. I don't know how it will work out with a 5 year old and a 1 year old, but it will also be good to get away from Cherokee for a little while. So now I have to save up my leave and not be lazy so much. Cylas, will you and God keep Scott and his family safe as they travel back home.)
Scott was like a brother to me and he knew both me and my EX. So he was very surprised to hear that we had divorced and no longer talk. He was also very sad to hear that I had lost you. So I had to go through my story and tell him about you. And of course he agrees that you did look just like your "dad". I think you would have really liked him. He's a nice guy and a true friend. It was really nice to reconnect with him for the first time in a long time. It was just like he had never left. He keeps saying that he wants to move back, but I don't know when. I wish they never left.
So seeing Scott and his family was the highlight of my weekend. He's leaving tomorrow, but this time I have all of their email addresses and I do plan on keeping in touch. I didn't take any pictures so I can't post any, but it seems like I always do that.
Cylas, I love ya!!!!!
MOMMY
(**Note: Well Scott and his family left to go back to Oklahoma today!! We spent about an hour and half with them last night. We talked and watched your sissy play with his nephew Jon. I hate that they had to go back, but I hope to make it out there in December. It's definitely in the early stages of planning, but I think it would be a good trip. I don't know how it will work out with a 5 year old and a 1 year old, but it will also be good to get away from Cherokee for a little while. So now I have to save up my leave and not be lazy so much. Cylas, will you and God keep Scott and his family safe as they travel back home.)