What else can happen?

I have a new worry on my mind. It's a worry that's been lingering for a while, but I've been avoiding the issue. I was doing a self breast exam and I found a lump on my (L) breast. Cancer doesn't run in my family on either side, so I am hopeful that it's nothing. But there is this HUGE part of me that scared out of my mind. Will I leave my daughter without a mother? Since Cylas died I've been more aware of the bad things that can happen. I know that I need to think positive but it's so hard after the year I've had. I've already had the worse thing happen. I don't need anything else on my plate. I dont' need any more bad luck.

I actually found the lump two months ago, but I've been in denial. But with Cylas' 1 year angelvarsary passing and having all my thoughts on him, I've been able to think of other things. I don't want to leave my daughter mother-less. I don't want to die.

If you are reading my blog, please say a prayer for me. Pass this on and have other bloggers pray for me too!! I am so SCARED!!!! I have an appointment for a breast exam in February, but that's 2 weeks away. 2 weeks for my mind to go crazy with all these negative thoughts.

Cylas be with mommy.