January 15, 2009

1 Year ANGELVARSARY

It's been a year since you passed away and left me for good. Even though I seem to be doing fine, my pain is still so real!!! I still miss you. I still wish you would come back. I still want to hold you. I still listen for you to breath. I still want to hold you in my arms. I still want to kiss your chubby cheeks. I still want to look into your eyes. I still wonder what might have been. I still look at your pictures. I still cry myself to sleep. I still ask myself Why? I still want people to miss you. I never want them to forget that, yes, you were here. I still wish that I could have saved your life. I still wish that I was a better mother. I still wish that I could hold your hand. I still want to count those tiny fingers and toes. I still want YOU...........

I miss you & love you Cylas!!!! Nan, Pops, & Prairie miss you too!! (Please continue to watch over us. Please continue sending us your angel kisses. Please continue to watch for us to send our love to you on angel wings each night. You will forever be missed & always in our hearts!!!!!)

Mommy

3 comments:

  1. I see his bottom picture and he is such a doll. I hurt when I stare at his pictures he is such a beautiful angel and I am so sorry this ever happened :(

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  2. sending you some love. and tell you i LovE the angel gliter you have.

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  3. I know I am a bit late but I just wanted to wish you a belated angelversary wish. I hope you were able to feel Cylas close to you that day and found some peace.
    And as always, Cylas, please fly close to your momma so she can feel your angel kisses!

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