What Am I going to do?

Cylas I don't know what to do. Your sister is in so much pain. Last night she finally broke down and cried for an hour before finally going to sleep. I tried my best to comfort her, but I only ended up crying right along with her. How in the world do I help her? How can I let her know that everything will be ok? All she wants is to have you back! She wants her brother back! As much as I want to help her, I know that I can't fix this problem for her. I know that I can't bring you back. I know that all this must be hard for her to understand. She's four years old and she misses her brother. I worry about her so much. I try to do my best for her as her mother but when it comes to this I feel like I let her down! I am still dealing with your loss, and I often wonder how can I be here for her when I am still trying to make it too? Last night she held Stripes so tight! She went to sleep holding him in her arms. Stripes is the only comfort I know that she has. She knows that she can talk to Stripes and you'll get the messages in Heaven. But Stripes will never fill that hole in her life. He will never be you. I feel so lost and confused. Your sister has always tried to keep herself from showing her feelings because she's worried about how I might react. I told her last night that it doesn't hurt to cry and that it's alright to talk about you at any time. I told her not to worry about my feelings because sometimes it helps me to have someone to cry with too! My heart broke last night and it will continue to break for the rest of my life. I carry you in my heart everyday and Iknow that we will never forget about you. I also know that it will take time to completely heal.

I don't know what to do about your sister. I have her in counseling but she's like me, she lets everything bottle up inside and then all once it explodes. All I can do is keep telling her that it's ok to miss you because I miss you too!! Please be close to your sister, Cylas. She needs to know that you are close to her. Let her feel your warm hugs and angel kisses. Your sister loves you and misses you very much!!

Mommy