Still Missin You

Today must be one of those days. For some reason I find myself tearing up whenever I think of you. I know that it never hurts to cry, and that crying is a part of the healing process. But sometimes I feel like I am just a big cry baby, because it's all I've done since you've been gone. But then again, if I don't cry, does that mean I am already forgetting you and don't miss you as much as I say I do? NO, it doesn't. It just means that I am learning how to handle my grief. I like to think of you as not being sick or suffering like you did before you died. Because I know that if I focus on the bad then I will probably get depressed and I don't have the time to be depressed. I have your sister to focus on. She's the reason why I am still able to get up and go.

Missing you today, Cylas. Loving you forever!!

Mommy