February 25, 2014

GROWING UP









Here are some recent pictures of your sisters, Cylas. They are growing up on us!! The picture on top is T goofing off (she does this at every photo session & has to have at least one or two goofy pictures in the mix). Iwodi will be 10 next month.........I mean really 10!!! I can't get over how much she has grown. She has a gentle heart. I love all 3 of you with all my heart!!

Please continue watching over these two crazy girls.......they love and miss you so much!!!!

Love you little man,
MOMMY

January 31, 2014

THE MESSAGE

A few nights ago I was sleeping. I started dreaming. In that dream I was in a hospital setting. And Cylas was in a hospital bed. He was a little older...maybe 6 or 7 months...his hair was longer and he was laughing and playing around. But he was healthy....I was trying to take in this dream as much as I could.

Since Cylas has been gone which has been 6 years I've only dreamed about him one other time and that dream scared me to death...it was a dream that I wasn't ready for. But this dream I needed it.

Right before I woke up, I heard a voice (haven't figured out whose voice) say "He's doing good!!" As soon as I woke up I had a smile on my face and my heart felt so much lighter. I knew that was Cylas or maybe someone else letting me know that I didn't have to worry as much. Since that night I still feel so much lighter. My son IS ok!!

I will miss him forever that's not something that's easy to let go. I love him with my whole heart and he will always be my son.

So until the next time I receive a new message I will remember this one!! I will know that he is doing good!!! Cylas you are my angel!!!!

Love you forever & always,
Mommy