IT'S YOUR 3RD ANGELVARSARY

As I try and think about the 3 years that have passed its so hard to believe its been that long since I've held you in my arms! I pulled out your diaper bag and looked at all the clothes I saved. I miss you so much and still want you back! I wonder what you would be like. I long to hear your laughter and to hear you say "I love you, mom!" I know that you would have been a good little boy, full of fun and laughter! I want my little boy here with me so bad!

I didn't get a chance to go visit your grave because of the weather but as soon as it clears up and gets pretty I'll go straight up there!!

I miss you and love you very much, Cylas!!

Mommy

UGH!!

I am so ready for spring time Cylas. Your sisters and I have been at Nan and Pop's for the last week because of the Stinkin' Snow!! We can't make it to our house because we about 10 to 12" of snow again! I never thought I would ever be so eager to be home! But I'm missing the comfort of my home, my bed, and my satellite TV!

I want to get you some new flowers for your Angelvarsary but with all this snow I don't know if I can make it to your grave. I can't believe its gonna be 3 years since I lost you! Time has gone by so fast but yet it seems like a lifetime without you in it. I miss you more and more with each day that passes and I often wonder if it will ever get better for me. I want you to know that I love you with all my heart!!

Cylas please stay close as we deal with this winter weather! I hate it but its something that I have to deal with. I love you son!!

MOMMY

ANOTHER NEW YEAR AND YET ANOTHER JANUARY

                                SISTER GETTING READY TO RELEASE THE BALLOONS!


As much as I hated to see it coming January is here! I dread January's! I had a sleepless night last night and I'm thinking this might happen all month long. I have lost many loved ones in the month of January and there's a part of me that always expects to lose someone else. I don't think I have to mention everyone but you know who they are.

I will work on getting your birthday slide show up and running this week. First, I need to catch up on my work. I took two weeks off and I enjoyed that time off but I was annoyed by the snow most of the time. I need to purchase a four wheeler with a scraper on the front of it. Looks like I'm going to need one.

Always thinking about you and always loving you forever and always!!!!
Mommy