September 24, 2010
ANOTHER MONTH, ANOTHER DAY
September 15, 2010
September 14, 2010
WHAT I WISH I COULD DO?
Cylas there are many times I sit at work and look at your pictures and wish that I could reach out and pick you up. If that could happen I would hold you and cuddle you all day long. All those smells that I miss would be refreshed in my mind and in my nose. My arms would be reminded of how much I miss holding you and loving you. I would spend my day rubbing your head and looking into those amazing dark eyes. And I would talk to you about everything. I would fill you in on what you've missed and I would just cherish every moment with you.
And it hurts my heart to know that this is only another wish that will never come true. The last couple of days have been hard on me emotionally and I don't know why. I guess it's time for my ride on the emotional roller coaster. I've been avoiding it for awhile and sometimes it just catches you off guard. Tomorrow will be 32 months since I had to say goodbye to you and I've really been thinking about you so much.
All I want is to hold you again and tell you that I love you very much!! Prairie is getting so big. She keeps telling that she's "almost" as tall as I am but she's not even close. She's so lovable and fun to be around. And Boss is getting big too!!! She's talking more now and is developing such an attitude. I think she's gonna be a handful!! I know that you would have been a good brother. And you are missed in all the action! I always mention that you would probably be wrestling with Prairie and pestering Boss. I miss that and I miss you!!!
Love,
Mom
And it hurts my heart to know that this is only another wish that will never come true. The last couple of days have been hard on me emotionally and I don't know why. I guess it's time for my ride on the emotional roller coaster. I've been avoiding it for awhile and sometimes it just catches you off guard. Tomorrow will be 32 months since I had to say goodbye to you and I've really been thinking about you so much.
All I want is to hold you again and tell you that I love you very much!! Prairie is getting so big. She keeps telling that she's "almost" as tall as I am but she's not even close. She's so lovable and fun to be around. And Boss is getting big too!!! She's talking more now and is developing such an attitude. I think she's gonna be a handful!! I know that you would have been a good brother. And you are missed in all the action! I always mention that you would probably be wrestling with Prairie and pestering Boss. I miss that and I miss you!!!
Love,
Mom
September 10, 2010
MISSING YOU
I wanted to let you know that I spent part of my day thinking about you! I don't know why and I can't explain it. But I keep thinking about what you would be like if you were here. I can just see us wrestling and playing some rough little boy football right about now. I would be chasing you around and having tons of fun with my little boy!
I miss you so much!! I miss the sweet smell of your hair after a bath and those chubby cheeks! I miss holding you in my arms! And I miss being your mother. I didn't get much time with you but I know that I could have a good mommy to you if only I was given a chance! I want to hear the words "I love you, mom" in a rough but playful little boy voice. Or even hear you shout "mommy" when I come to pick you up from school, like Boss does! I miss tripping over trucks and cars in the hallway of our house! I miss all the things that most mom's complain about!! I would love to experience everything a little boy could possibly get into!
Cylas, I love and miss you so much! I wish everyday that you were here with me!
I miss you so much!! I miss the sweet smell of your hair after a bath and those chubby cheeks! I miss holding you in my arms! And I miss being your mother. I didn't get much time with you but I know that I could have a good mommy to you if only I was given a chance! I want to hear the words "I love you, mom" in a rough but playful little boy voice. Or even hear you shout "mommy" when I come to pick you up from school, like Boss does! I miss tripping over trucks and cars in the hallway of our house! I miss all the things that most mom's complain about!! I would love to experience everything a little boy could possibly get into!
Cylas, I love and miss you so much! I wish everyday that you were here with me!
